Breaking The Fourth Wall: Forever in Fiction Lag

I think I've just found one of the best blogs.

Tue, 21 May 2013 03:09:34 -0400

I think I've just found one of the best blogs.

flaumusic: aus new mixtape for Plastic Platform by The 405 aus...

Tue, 21 May 2013 01:43:13 -0400

aus new mixtape for Plastic Platform by The 405

aus made the mixtape on europe tour, feat.Felix Kubin, Praezisa Rapid 3000, SJQ, Lukid, Patten, Build An Ark many more.

イギリスのThe 405の人気ミックスシリーズPlastic Platform、oOoOOに続いてausが最新ミックスを提供しています。

Happy nights are here again. I just want to work and write in Tokyo preferably while hanging out with the Flau crew….

atavus: Seetal Solanki - Alexander McQueen SS09,...

Mon, 20 May 2013 22:36:22 -0400

atavus:

Seetal Solanki - Alexander McQueen SS09, 2009

Website | Tumblr

Josh, from the Brooklyn based band Selebrities, has a secret...

Mon, 20 May 2013 18:37:00 -0400

Josh, from the Brooklyn based band Selebrities, has a secret pizzeria. The Yelp reviews are hilarious.

“The delivery man came to my door and i said i had no money to pay for it but he just smiled slyly and said “oh I bet there’s some way you can pay for it”.
“There’s two types of people in this world - people who ‘like’ pizza and people who love it. I happen to love it, and I also happen to love Josho’s pizza. Quality ingredients, brick oven style. About it. Only problem was that the delivery guy skated to my place..to each their own I guess. Mazel Tov!”

Sea Cucumber

Mon, 20 May 2013 18:02:00 -0400

Some of you have contacted me recently to ask if I’m alright. A couple of you, whom I’ve actually become friends with over the years, have even texted me. Thanks- I never expect to be noticed when it comes to a weakness and I appreciate your concern.

Lately I’ve been doing better. What I’m about to share is hard for me to talk about, but (like I have for the past three years) this blog is a mirror for me to practice being truly honest. It’s the one place where I don’t feel so guilty self indulging. You choose to read what I have to say- I’m not the one coming to you.

I had someone tell me recently that I use honesty as a defense mechanism. My heart shattered a little bit 1) because I don’t like being that vulnerable with anybody and the idea that they could see past my bull shit terrified me into silence 2) they were right.

I’ve been doing better since I started taking the medication. My mind doesn’t race so much, my mini panic attacks have subsided from almost 3 a day to only 1 a week (which is a huge relief), and I’ve been sleeping more. God, this is hard to write out. I don’t like admitting that I have a problem. It makes me feel weak and vulnerable. All I want is for someone to care about me past the point of me feeling guilty for taking up their time. The more I care about you the more I look for ways to escape. The more I care the more insecure I become that they’d actually want to hang out with me. I can feel how stupid this is, yes.

Today that dark comfort of sadness is starting to creep in the corners of my mind. Fraying my memory of today at the edges like the old photographs I collect. I’m scared to post this, but I need to for me. I need to look back on this in however many years and say that I took the first step. I hate this guilt for feeling this way, even though I know it’s not my fault. I feel guilty for almost everything. I also hate admitting that I need people. I do, though. I need them right now. I’ve done so much this semester to try and help myself, but I still feel like such a failure. I don’t have a job. My grades are not what I wanted. I’m scared no one will write me back about writing for a blog this summer. I’m nervous for this fall and all the work I have to do. Worst of all, I fear that I’m one of those people who’s all talk and no action. I don’t want to be that person.

Emotional word vomiting done. Time to take a nap before studying.

itsherfactory: La Bonniche, @lecoledesfemmes. Please tell me...

Mon, 20 May 2013 17:42:10 -0400

itsherfactory:

La Bonniche, @lecoledesfemmes.

Please tell me this is what you were wearing when you eye sexed with The Gos. Babe, I love this.

babylonbabe: dream

Mon, 20 May 2013 13:04:57 -0400

babylonbabe:

dream

From the album, Moon Tides, available August 19 (UK) / August 20...

Mon, 20 May 2013 12:40:27 -0400

From the album, Moon Tides, available August 19 (UK) / August 20 (US).

Portland based band Pure Bathing Culture bring you the answer to the summer bummer “What do we play?” The Cocteau Twins surrounded by palm trees, gin & tonics, and a strong urge to jump into the ocean. Salt in the eyes never burned so sweet.

flaumusic: VOLUME Magazine feat. Cuushe new...

Mon, 20 May 2013 12:23:33 -0400

flaumusic:

VOLUME Magazine feat. Cuushe new interview

イギリス発のインディペンディエント・マガジンVOLUME Magazineの最新号でCuusheが特集されています。最新インタビューなど掲載。

Cuushe’s new interview is on the latest issue of VOLUME Magazine in UK.
You can buy the magazine from here.

“Mayuko Hitotsuyanagi is a real sleepyhead. Most of the songs she makes as Cuushe are concerned with the act, or the art, of dreaming…you still get the sense she’d rather be sleeping.”

photo by Nozomi Tomoeda

Photo

Mon, 20 May 2013 01:39:45 -0400

Beach House vibes with a harp and male vocals. This is what...

Mon, 20 May 2013 01:22:59 -0400

Beach House vibes with a harp and male vocals. This is what I’d hear running through the trees in a fog filled forest. A labyrinth of misgivings and wrong turns- this track mirrors feelings of the unknown attached with all romantic relationships.

Photo

Mon, 20 May 2013 01:18:43 -0400

Way Yes- Colerain

Mon, 20 May 2013 00:56:44 -0400

Way Yes- Colerain

Finding out that the awesome magazine, Crack, was based 7 blocks away from my flat in Bristol made...

Mon, 20 May 2013 00:35:00 -0400

Finding out that the awesome magazine, Crack, was based 7 blocks away from my flat in Bristol made me just face palm myself.

HOW WAS I NOT AWARE. Can I go back already?

Three degrees of separation between me and this Parisian...

Mon, 20 May 2013 00:20:00 -0400

Three degrees of separation between me and this Parisian blogger. And by three degrees, I mean JUST BARELY enough to validate myself. She’s just too cool.

A guy who was in my art program in high school is actually doing...

Sun, 19 May 2013 23:34:00 -0400

A guy who was in my art program in high school is actually doing things. If you live in the bay you should stop by- if only for the free beer which I’m sure there will be plenty of.

Modern day conversations and relationships:

Sun, 19 May 2013 22:58:35 -0400

Read between the lines = look closely at the hashtags

Cocktails Inspired by Arrested Development (Stop Motion) And I...

Sun, 19 May 2013 22:57:53 -0400

Cocktails Inspired by Arrested Development (Stop Motion)

And I thought the Lucille was my original idea! Damn. This will be great for the party my friends and I are having.

The first paragraph of what I'm currently working on:

Sun, 19 May 2013 21:30:00 -0400

I’ll post the other 10 pages when it’s done.

Split Rail

Between the hazy smoke filled eyelids was the place where people craved to live. The city that never sleeps, yet people are always tired from the labor required to survive there. It was a place that only called to the ones worth knowing and those who wanted to end there when it was time to go. This labyrinth of denial that Fay and I seemed to always be chasing after was also chasing after us. It fed on our attention and reliance that it could be, and would be, everything we wanted. The dreams that touched our pillows at night would have nothing less.

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Sun, 19 May 2013 20:55:42 -0400

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